Stop the pain
Stop the pain of living, The pain of dying.
I look
at you, tears burning my yes as i scream,
As i scream this to you,
you laugh, laugh that crocked little laugh.
You don't believe me, you
don't think I will do it.
I look at the knife that in my hand, the
sharp blade calling.
I lift it, lift it to that vain, that blue vain,
the vain of death, I scream at you one last time.
'I will do it"
I
look you in the eyes, I look at that crocked little smile, and i know, I
know you don't believe me.
I bring the blade closer, closer that
vain, and as stearing pain shoots up my arm, I see the blood flowing,
flowing down my arm, I keep cutting and as the blade reaches my elbo i
look up, to you, in those eyes and whisper "You didn't believe me, then,
but maybe, maybe if i say it now you will, I love you!"
As I fall to
the ground feeling nothing now, nothing at all, no pain, no sorrow,
just blank.
I open my eyes to your face, that sweet face, you look
down at me tears in your eyes, over flowing.
I want to reach up but i
can't, i can't feel my arms i go to talk but you stop me.
You lift
me in your arms and then look around as if looking, searching for
something, you find it, you find the blade.
I look at you worry
intently filling me, shouting through me.
You look at me and say "I
hear you, I believed you and I always loved you, I never meant it, I
never meant the pain, the sorrow, I can't lose you, I need you"
You
lift the blade, you lift the blade to your own arm and cut, you cut up
that blue vain, and you whisper, pain in your voice, "If you can't live
then I can't live with out you, not now, not ever."
You grip me
Tighter and slowly, Everything goes black, everything goes blank.
I
feel no pain
I feel no pain of living, no pain of dying, I feel
nothing but your love.
I wake up to that sweet face of love to realize i didn't die and the glee in his eye as well
